Monday, December 24, 2012

Quiet your dreams, your voice

To anyone who is reading this, merry Christmas Eve! I have a terribly good feeling about this Christmas, that in the midst of all the troubles gone through lately, the days will be better than before. This change may well be all for the better, even though I had not expected or wanted this.

Vagueness aside, how can anyone not melt at this? Kitty says good morning!

That's it, I'm off to study? Two weeks of intensive study is officially starting today, couldn't do that without brushing dust off my blog first. Here's a song I'm very much addicted to currently. There's something about that edgy atmosphere and her haunting vocals that keeps me coming back for more. Hmm.

P.S. the title is partly quoted from a Warsan Shire post titled Be Small For Me (bitterly apt for the recent happenings)

Wednesday, November 14, 2012


We are who we are because of many things, but one of many is who we meet along the way of life. Whether you love them or hate them, they will most certainly made a mark, whether you know it or not. It could even be someone you meet on the street, someone you see in an article, someone you've only exchanged a word with. It may be the smallest thing such as picking up a new habit or it could be something big as to inspire you to greater heights. 

This is one of my current favourite songs. The voice, the emotion. Soothing and exhilarating at the same time.

From the outside, from the outside,
Everyone must be wondering why we try,
Why do we try

Baby in our wildest moments,
We could be the greatest, we could be the greatest
Baby in our wildest moments,
We could be the worst of all

P.S. pic found at Weheartit. Adorable, no? :)

Monday, October 29, 2012


I've had a fairly amazing weekend compared to the few days before that. Time passes extra fast when you're surrounded by friends. Good times. Stopped bumming for trial results.

For starters, I went skating. For the first time. The first time was supposed to be left to go with the boyfie but he is so busy nowadays. The social calendar is so full that I don't even know when he's going out with his classmates *which is a lot*. *sighs*

 I'm only putting this pic cuz I like myself in it. :p Surprisingly, the Kevin who constantly annoys was extremely helpful in the rink. Brownie points earned indeed.

And that's the whole group that went. I kept failing at taking the group shot so in the end I scooted to the back. Tsk tsk. 

Me with my girls! All of us had never went skating before. And I just have to bring this up... While everyone else who thinks they know me well keep telling me I'm going to die in there, I did not fall on my own! I did not get any bruises or scratches! A-ma-zing.

Then on day 2, I went shopping at Mid Valley with the long lost bestie who came back from Kampar. Pics taken at Gardens after enjoying this.

I think I've got a pretty good shot? The topping is pumpkin seeds and oreo crumbs. Love it.

I talked to her so much while at Din Tai Fung I let my noodles go cold and soggy. So kids, never talk while you're eating. Makes much more sense now.

And here's the haul of the day.

Mango drawstring bag and Topshop chevron stripe sleeveless dress. Major reductions.

Kevin's got me hooked to some Taylor Swift songs. I can now see *hear, actually* that her new album is much  more better than the old one. I've always felt her previous songs were nice but boring. Really like this one because there is Snow Patrol in it. Gary Lightbody's voice is just magical. Taylor Swift may not have the best voice ever, but she always comes out with amazing collaborations.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

A Furry Story

Disclaimer: Major cuteness ahead. 

When I was 7, I read this book by R.L Stein (remember him?) about murderous cats. I think it was my first R.L. Stein book. Or first attempt to the horror genre. Yes, a young, tender age of 7 reading R.L. Stein. What I remembered was being slightly terrified of the story. And cats. And by slightly terrified, I mean it didn't stop me from collecting more of R.L. Stein's books. Adrenaline junkie here? 

But I digress.

In my neighbourhood, there are quite a lot of cats. Both stray cats and pet cats. Both stray cats and pet cats run around the streets. Both stray cats and pet cats look almost the same. As in, either entirely black or white or agouti mackarel (not much of agouti blotched or agouti spotted :p) 

Since I moved to the room at the back, my neutrality towards cats started shifting to the negative. Because my walls are not soundproof and cats seem to be quite noisy at night. They just love to linger at that low wall at the backyard. Sometimes, they fight, and sometimes they just keep on meowing. 

In retrospect, maybe it was the season of meowing very loudly. Since nowadays I don't hear much, even when there's a cat living permanently at the back. 

Around 4 months ago, this black tabby gave birth to 3 kittens at my backyard. Whenever anyone went near the cat mom, it would hiss and act aggressive. It wouldn't leave. It would go out and find food and come back to care for the kittens. 

Here are the kittens around 2 weeks old? I have never seen kittens that tiny before, plus they all look extremely cute. So I got fascinated. Gave them milk and bread occasionally and even Googled what do cats eat.

 Surprisingly, these kittens were very quiet and only mewed when the mother came back from food-searching or morning strolls to the neighbour's house to piss off the dog there. There were of course sibling fights once they got a bit older but those fights were not the hissing, scratching kind. More of the 'let's roll around and bite each other' kind of fight. Mainly silent.

This was originally my favourite because she's the friendliest. The other two wouldn't dare to go near people. Ironically, this one ended to be the one that never came back to visit after knowing how to jump and climb out.  -.-

And this was the one who was most scared of people. But sometimes she would get curious. Just not much. It was so anti social it didn't even mingle much with the other two. She was also rebellious. First one to climb the highest and drop off over the wall and had to get rescued by the cat mom back into. Also the first one who succeeded in getting out to walk around. What I learnt from this: kitty see, kitty do. The other two saw the white one getting out, so they started to want to get out too. First, they will get used to climbing up to the railings. Few days after getting used to that, they just jumped off and out into the open. For the first week, all of them returned from their outings. The next week, this whitish one disappeared. Few days later, the remaining two disappeared as well.

The one who returned was the brownish one. It only stayed for a few nights then it ran off again.

The black tabby never returned. *WHY*

And I thought I would never hear of the white rebellious kitty. Never really liked her much anyway. She would hiss whenever I go near.

In the end, it came back. As a brainwashed kitty. She came back in the night, with a loud thump. Ever since coming back, she seldom went out. She didn't refuse people touching her either. In fact, she loves it. There was one time that she did, but she came in through the front door. I have no idea how she knew it was our house. Maybe she recognized my sister sitting on the sofa watching TV. Just tapped on the glass door and meowed to be let in. So we got her back to the back, where she seems to love. Must be tired of the outside world. :p 

Soooo... She's my new favourite kitty. My grandfather, on the other hand, has liked it since day 1. Even when she was a hissy little kitty. Gives her a load of food. 


  • Is scared of the vacuum cleaner. Or the hair dryer. Actually, both fascinated and scared. Whenever my grandpa vacuums the floor, her eyes will be fixed on him and the vacuum, but never dared to go near. 
  • Likes peering from outside the windows. 
  • Obsessed with human company. 
  • Obsessed with rugs and the bristles of the broom. Or smooth surfaces. 
  • Calls out to people whenever they come out to the back. 
  • Would be a potential football player if she were human. Likes to play with cockroaches, which is abundant outside, treating it like a ball. Kicking it away and catching it again, repeat. There was one time she found a screw, and treated it the same way.
  • Likes sleeping in the sink out at the back.
  • Extremely good in hiding. And running away from the big cats who recently loves to pick fights with her. Though never succeeded because she is just that good at hiding.
  • Likes a good rub. But scared of excess water.
  • When no one is there to play with her, runs around back and forth.
  • Occasionally gets visits from the cat mom and loves those visits. But never follows the mom out. Stays put at the backyard. Or nearby anyway.
  • Does not like eating in the presence of humans. Prefers playing unless experiencing extreme hunger. Or the smell of food is too overwhelming. 
  • At night whenever not catching cockroaches, she likes to sit at the edge of the railings and ponder about life. At least I think that's what she looked like doing.
  • Kitty no likey tickling.
  • Still has no name. Because she will always be at the door when I get the keys *sharp hearing* If she's out for a stroll, she will come back if she hears knocking of the door. Then she just goes for the feet.
  • Was once adventurous with choice of food. Tried cockroach and puked it on the floor outside. 
  • Does not seem to recognize the difference between sand and concrete. Scratches on the floor like it was sand then shitting on 'hole' she thought she made. Nowadays seem to know the difference. Based on the lack of shit on the floor.
  • Is learning how to get the door to open. Knows how to knock on the door.
And that's the end of observations for now. 

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Snow Patrol on Repeat

There are days when I want to be invisible.
There are days when I don't care how much I've angered him.
There are days when I continue being irrational.
There are days when I want to be antisocial.
There are days when I want to be alone.
There are days when I pretend. To be happy. To be content. All the things the books say.
There are days when I want to feel something intense.
There are days when I want to drown in busy schedules.
But in the end there is nothing, so I continue to doing all the above.
I wonder if that makes sense to anyone but me.

On a lighter note, I've finished The Perks of being a Wallflower and The Sense of an Ending recently. On my self-declared break before I started drafting a study schedule to follow (which is finally functioning now that trials is so near). The insight of both these books are quite profound. So many paragraphs worth quoting. I also bought The Virgin Suicides at the book fair in college, full of intrigue with bits and pieces of social commentary that I quite like.

Please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough. 

Saturday, August 25, 2012


Life is like a piece of tiramisu, the bittersweet taste to be enjoyed and taken in small bites.

Most random heading ever? Craving for sweet stuff while I am typing this! Kinda missing the banana cream pie I had yesterday which was shared with him. The last time I ate that pie, I was alone in Pav and made a mess out of everything because I only had a plastic fork. Although it was good, but the portion was clearly not for a person like me. Made me bloated the whole day and just feeling plain lousy because of the things that happened recently. Guess food tastes better when shared *or may I add when shared with someone endearing ;)*

My most recent bad episode is finally done, at least for now it seems to be getting the closure it needs. Definitely a cause to celebrate. Hence the load of good food I had yesterday. Plus a little retail therapy. Just a little. :D

So shoo away for now, negativity! Mood swings, saboteurs disguised as friends, shoo!

Favourite song of the week. So over Ed Sheeran now. Haha. Sia's voice is therapeutic. :D

OK, I guess I'll have to return to the pile of maths homework I neglected now.
Happy weekend peeps! Play nice! xD Ciao. :p

Saturday, August 4, 2012


What a roller coaster week. A lot of revelations and a lot of work to do. Ok maybe not so much because I still have time to procrastinate and do stuff I shouldn't be doing. Peeps I am just kinda overwhelmed this week. But at the end of the day no matter how out of place everything seems to be I am still convinced problems will get fixed. It just takes a little more time before everything is considered normal or better.

Anyway I am so grateful to have awesome friends around. Even those who are not in the same college with me but they will still have my back (yes Yi Xin you. Your message was adorable) when the going gets tough.

Wokay... enough of sappy stuff, picture time! Theme: Chin Xin Yi.

I am very proud of my sense of humour here. My birthday gift picked for her is the most adorable rice spoon you'll ever see. It was love at first sight back at Typo where I bought it. We're not at the photo frame/ cups stage anymore, time has come to gift kitchen utensils! Now every time she cooks the rice for the guys she'll remember me ;)

And to end this post there's one very funny question and answer from Justin who's also awesome at cheering people up that I just had to highlight:
Q: what do you bring to a deserted island?
A: a genie lamp with unlimited wishes.

Gotta be the best survivor ever. ;)

Sunday, July 29, 2012

I like my blog

I just couldn't think of a proper title. Getting so not creative nowadays. :( Every time I post something that is close to the heart and more personal, I feel obliged to top it with another post full of pictures and in most cases, a happier one. So here's bits and pieces from recently. The photo quality does not do my Lumix any justice. I should really work on the skill sometime.

Love these two to bits. Girlfriends since primary school! The other amigo is taking our picture.

Went out with the boyfie during the holidays. A very satisfying meal after heavy shopping at Mango. Poor him became THAT GUY. You know, one of those sad, bored-out-of-their-mind boyfriends/ husbands standing outside the fitting room waiting. If I remembered correctly, this is chicken teriyaki. Yum.

Loot from Mango. I finally scored the perfect chambray and the perfect pastel jeans! Fits me so good too. Just deliciously skinny. Excuse me if the term is narcissistic and may seem offensive to anorexics and people trying to be skinny. Rephrase: Deliciously toned. My other jeans are not branded and of cheaper quality so I usually need a belt to make it not slip when I walk. Hip and thigh ratio not according to usual standards. :( Note to self: Never settle for ill-fitting jeans! Also the perfect grey tee. It's so soft and flowy. And that floral cardigan! Omigosh I've never loved Mango so much. Sales are awesome! :D

The only memorable dish at Modesto's. The dishes that I liked - one was a dish with three different desserts and the other three different types of pasta (gnocchi, risotto and another one I forgot) they cut it out from their menu! Gosh. It was such a bummer. I had raved about it for so long after my first visit and was hoping for a good meal during my 2nd anniversary! My mom would laugh so hard if she knew. I've got the food curse -.- (anything I desperately want to eat always comes late or is not available on the visit) Gahhh. That's apple pie by the way.
Outfit for the opening act of Midsummer Masquerade. I love the black dress! It's got a cutout at the back and the neckline is perfect! Designed by my aunt. Necklace from Pink Evil Fashion Supermarket (gosh, what a long name for a boutique).

And then finally, my so called costume for the night! I'm not really sure what the theme is. It's something like nerd/ western style? Left my printed nerdy specs at home though. I look extremely orange in all the photos that night. Grrr. 

That's all for now. Am dead tired. Homework tomorrow. Another gathering tomorrow. Lunch at One World. Hectic week coming up as well. I seriously need to go redeem my Kinokuniya member voucher soon. I wanna get so many books! Haven't been reading much lately, it makes me feel so depleted! Ok, maybe that's not exactly an appropriate word to describe life without books. I want to get a book hangover! But not a heavy one. Thus I've made my own reading remix list:

1) something crime/ thriller 2) Douglas Adams! Hilarious sci-fi. 3) Something that won a literary prize that will most probably leave a heavy hangover after it's finished. The latest book that got me hooked was A Thousand Splendid Suns and surprisingly, The Fault in Our Stars 4) A waddaya-call-it autobiography? Ellen Degeneres' Seriously... I'm Kidding or Let's Pretend This Never Happened by Jenny Lawson 5) and if I'm really up to it, something ridiculous like Fifty Shades of Grey (OK, Christian Grey was a character that showed promise but then E.L. James... failed) 

OK. Seriously enough babbling. I just love coming up to my blog to rant and rave. Annoy you guys another time then. 

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Alert: recruit new BFF lolol

I've neglected my blog lately and now I'm here just because I want to get something out so that someone could read it but not everyone on Facebook so Blogger it is. I know no one reads the blog nowadays but it is still considered public so yea.

Lately thanks to Elena I got reminded of something that I've really needed but had always put it off because I didn't find it attainable. Now I realized what a huge gaping hole there is and I just can't ignore it. I tried filling it but failed. Suddenly my daily life seems so so bland. I need something. Huge.

So there's this huge imbalance I'm trying to express but no one gets it. Actually there is no chance to express it. Everyone is busy. My closest friends don't go online and they are busy too. That guy? Forget it. Just plain disappointing. Given up. At least for now. I was hoping maybe he could get it but some things are not for everyone I guess.

Conclusion: new BFF needed. Or new purpose. Whatever that keeps me numb.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Dress up. Random vain pix.

This was day 2 at Pattaya. A candid shot taken by my mom. I love my Vincci lace brogues. :D

And this was day 2 at Bangkok. Deeper and Harder faux leather cap, Diva earrings, Cotton On necklace, Mango shirt

Day 1 at Bangkok. Top, dress, belt - Random shops. Flats from Vincci, not-so-visible arm swag from G&H.

A Tropical Garden looks like this...

I seldom travel overseas so I do not know much about foreign cultures and travel destinations. I only get to know bits and pieces from other people's eyes. But that is not the same with your own, so the feelings and adventures they have on the same country may not concur with yours. After coming back from Thailand, I feel like asking: Ng Yen Yen, why you no make our tourism spots as fancy as them?

They have good service and the places that are crawling with visitors deserve every bit of attention. For example, this tropical garden here - Nongnooch Tropical Garden, Pattaya. The entrance is situated opposite a very busy road and going in, you'd never expect such a big paradise hidden within. They have the loveliest gardens. We went on a little tour around the place on a shuttle. The driver was speaking in Thai so I have the slightest idea what he was saying when he introduced the different spots. I took a lot of pictures that day, but these are the ones that I feel like posting.  

 There is a mini Stonehenge park and the only word I can use to describe is cute. Haha.
 For plants, bonsais, whatnot. I remember passing by a vegetation farm too.

 Close-up of a maze thingy. There are so many questions I have for this place. What are these white constructions for? What imitation is this?

 Very Alice in Thai Wonderland, no? 

I sincerely find this a bit disturbing. It just got me thinking, is this a sign of objectification of women in the olden days?

 We ended up watching the Thai cultural show and the elephant performance afterwards. The cultural show is a tad bit boring for me, but the elephant show was amazing. I know a lot of people have seen it but this is my first time witnessing elephants painting, play all kinds of sports, and ride on these things. They are definitely no 'dumbos'. As what most would agree on, they are smart, gentle animals.

I was feeding it a banana. They love bananas! Bananas are part of their reward system. I guess that's what they use as rewards during training. There are a few Thai kids wearing shirts that say 'Banana Team' selling bananas for 40 baht a bunch. After every stunt they pulled off, they will come around near the audience looking for bananas. Some will give them money, but they won't eat it of course. They will dutifully hand it to the supervisors.

Finally, to end this post, a plate of mango sticky rice I had at Central Festival's food court. Absolutely delicious and a must-try at Thailand. Their mangoes are awesome! But I think I've repeated that loads of times already. :D

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

So I have a really long holiday.

I think I am supposed to go look for a part time job. But the people who know well about this kind of stuff (sales assistant/ people giving free samples/ etc) I don't know so well. And I have always felt a tad bit uncomfortable around them, like we will never ever be more than hi-bye acquaintances and there's this huge barrier between me and these people but I don't wanna bother about it. Yay me and my problem-solving methods. Haha. Anyway, there's one job that I can go for but that place is currently LOADED with drama and the last time I went, I had so many reasons I don't like about it including the job I was given, the things I have to hear on the way to work, the time sucked out. I was like a zombie going around the things I have to do, and because zombies have little brain capacity and low work productivity, that was me at the end of the day. Out of say 10 things I might very well screw up 7 or 8. It was pretty traumatic, and what I remember most is on the way to work every day. I would put on my earphones but the volume is not high enough to block out the noise next to me. I know it's all for earning money and that's where most of my pretty stuff comes from but hearing those conversations (and I try not to) I just can go crazy. Like banging my head on the window kind of crazy. I do not know how to describe it aptly enough except the fact that I hate listening to my dad talking on the phone for half an hour straight every morning. It just sucks the life out of me.

Anyway back to nicer things.

Me and my cheesecake. In some Japanese restaurant at Pavilion. It's pretty awesome cheesecake from Slice of Heaven btw. Why am I posing with my cheesecake? Because MJ a.k.a Miss Elusive is taking my picture. Someday when I have enough guts I'm going to grab her and force her to take a picture of us together HAHAHA. It's been about half a year since we last met, talked in real, shared details of our little day-to-day action. At first I was wondering if things would screw up in the end because I go out with friends so rarely and my conversational skills are probably NIL.

In retrospect, the outing was quite good. Love her to bits. Loads of the usual girl-goes-on-outing stuff: talk, eat, shop. It always surprises me how not-awkward these outings go. Yes human company is beneficial. Don't let one or two sucky ones (oh like the epic 2008 meet up) let you get cynical or pessimistic.

A load of our sharing sessions was about college life, schoolmates and gossip about who we knew in high school. Everyone's everywhere it's so hard to keep track. Glad to share I have pretty cool college peeps and everyone's really nice. Makes me develop hope in human company. OK I sound weird now.

Signing off.

P.S. I love every picture MJ takes. I am looking incredibly haggard and panda-ish that day but this shot didn't look so bad. Compared to the tons of pictures taken elsewhere which I don't even dare to look at much. And now you know why I don't post much pictures of myself haha.

Friday, June 8, 2012

The Great Departure - Thailand

I have never been a huge fan of going on trips. There are so many ways the trip can go wrong and usually in my case, arguments and bad habits. But of course all this can be prevented if there is good pre-trip planning and the people going with you are compatible. *hint hint ;)* But this was one I had been looking forward for over a year. For shopaholics on budget, this is like the Holy Grail of shopping - Bangkok. Never mind that the first two days will be spent in Pattaya, I'll get loads of compensation over the last two days.

Anyway, here's what went on during the first day. :D

1. At LCCT about to go on board the Air Asia flight. Definitely not as glamorous as KLIA, but the new building will soon be complete and I heard it will be so much nicer and provide passengers with a sheltered walkway to the plane.

2. Siblings and I.

3. There are some very interesting pictures on the wall when arriving at the Bangkok airport.

4. Stayed at this small little hotel - April Suites. It had a very homely feel to it and the room looks great.

5. Pasta carbonara with bacon slices. Simply divine. One of the perks of being in Thailand is that everywhere is non-Halal. This was taken at a German restaurant down the street. I forgot what's the restaurant's name though. 

6. Sister's dish. Steak? 

7. Then off to Central Festival mall for dessert. 

8. Mango parfait. One does not simply not taste mangoes when they are in Thailand. 

9. There was a shooting gallery on the top floor. Interesting place. The woman target inside sort of reminds me of the ghost in Insidious.

10. There are so many dessert stalls to explore. I think it's way better than bubble tea stalls flooding the malls in Malaysia. 

Knit sweater from Taiwan, Zara pink tank top, Romp jeans, SW belt, TS colour block bag, Nose platform wedges