Saturday, March 19, 2011

Get Outta My Way

OK, so the holidays didn't go as well as expected. But here's what I did.

1. Finished The Passage by Justin Cronin.

One of the most brilliant books I've ever read. The reviews related it to Stephen King. So it was worth a try, right? The first page got me sucked into the plot. I've never read any novels on apocalypses before, and by the way, has anyone noticed the trend lately? It's all about armageddon. Or maybe it's a coincidence that my movie channels are showing a lot of end-of-the-world-let's-live-with-aliens movies. The other night I woke up in a coughing fit and my befuddled mind was good enough to think: COUGH MEDICINE. NOW. But I started imagining what if I got out to the kitchen alone and a viral *vampire/animal/virus-infected human from The Passage* attacked me?! OK. The next morning I clearly remembered being scared shitless the night before and not daring to go out and get my cough medicine. My conspiracy theory is that Justin Cronin has sort of incepted me with his book and now my subconscious has believed in the presence of virals, a.k.a. genetically altered humans who are immortal and wouldn't hesitate to tear your limbs off and suck the blood off anything with haemoglobin.

2. Avoided but got sucked in anyway. The fox tail trend anyone?

Those huge furry boots models wore down the runway were already an eye sore. Oh God. The Abominable Monster strikes again! But not furry bags. I love them!! I have a tendency to keep patting them. And mine glows reddish under the sun. It's beautiful. :D Weird much? Haha. Though, I don't really get So what's with the tail hanging out the bag? It's all over Vivi. Why do you need fox tails *faux fox tails* hanging out of your pockets or bags. Guess what? I bought myself a furry bag. And it has a tail! I swore I was going to get it off the moment I got back home. But didn't do it in the end.

3. I had an epiphany. Sort of.

There's no time for whining. I'm not gonna let them pull me down. I won't be affected by negative comments. They can think whatever they want. I have to work harder because that's the only way to escape this hole.

One of my favourite songs lately. Cool video too. I'm more drawn to songs with techno beats nowadays. Or something Sigur Ros-like.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

A Lot of Random Thoughts

A random picture of me during my Penang trip last year. Sorry to offend you with such a retarded face. @.@ Sad to say, my beloved Mix Style headphones are dead now. RIP.

Neglected my bloggie for quite a while due to the monthly test. FOUR DAYS SEEMED LIKE ETERNITY. I kept counting down the days left. NOW I'M DONE WITH IT!

May have flunked my Biology. Didn't study enough. Mind went blank while I was doing it. I was depleted of energy already since I had a pretty awful start with my Add Maths.

So.. yea. Add Maths. From the first question I was dumbfounded. Like, GOSH, wait what is this?! I thought I covered everything! It looked familiar but I couldn't continue. So, I skipped. At least for the time being.

2nd question. Integration stuff. And halfway through I got stuck. AGAIN? skipped.
3rd question was simply out of the question (no pun intended). My first page is officially dead.

Throughout the paper, I only managed half of it. The last two pages I tackled at the last ten minutes. And to think I could have a chance to get an A- since I felt pretty good after studying! I'm going to fail. Thoughts of failing, not getting my Topshop reward *if I get an A-*, thoughts of myself being dumb.

Those 10 minutes were horrible. Time was running out. I was unable to find a suitable way to get the area and volume of the darn shaded region. I felt incredibly stupid. Depressed I am actually so dumb. Disappointed that I couldn't while the others were probably done and smiling from ear to ear because it was so easy for them.

In the end, I passed it up, because I couldn't continue anymore. And got into an ugly crying mess. I probably looked like a scary clown.

Ironically, the others had a hard time doing it as well. Which made me feel better infinitely. -.-

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In the end, I survived. Luckily I passed my Add Maths test, by 2 marks. Well, good news? I may have made the biggest breakthrough in my Chemistry test, in which I've always sucked at. All in all, it was ok.

Loads of thanks to boyf who pretty much handed all the support I need. :D I have been not following my 'go with the flow' motto lately and instead, went all bonkers and negative. I'm going to stop thinking about 'what ifs' cuz he's going to get tired hearing and reemphasizing gross yet weirdly comforting and sickly sweet stuff.

But.. anyway..

Since the holidays are coming...